“life's about taking chances”

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28th JUNE 2011, one of the worst day in my life!
My collegemates are attending semester two without me.
I'm no longer a taylorians.
I miss PM15 so badly.

JUNRA's news surfaced all over the net this morning. I was back from lunch when i came across the message from jia yee. My first reaction was OMG!!!!! WHAT?!!!! WAE GOO HARA?! WAE WAE WAE!!!

I sensed some changes on junhyung when JY and i was chatting the other day. We were guessing that he may be in love with a girl out there since he looked strangely happier than before on stage. WE GOT IT RIGHT! but why, of all the girls, why Hara? I didn't see this coming.

My personal opinion is i don't ship JUNRA. Forever junseob in my heart! I'm not a fan of hara nor kara, but beast, so i'll respect his choice. I wasn't in pain and heartbroken at all compared to jongkyung's case back then, i nearly tear up. Perhaps a little heartbroken is reasonable. Some just claimed that we don't own him, I KNOW, but i HAVE THE RIGHT to feel sad and unhappy. Only true b2uties know. To be honest, i'm actually happy that he found someone he loves. I'll just assume i don't know the girl :')

After doing all the thinking this afternoon, i think i found the reason why i'm not in pain. I had gone through something far worse than this, and for a month, i lived in nightmares. Worst still, I was forced to accept the fact that nothing could change, NOTHING. Guess i have used up my life-time tears that time. Everyone told me to accept the fact, now tell me, what's actually the fact?! If you were me, would you be able to say this out in such a way? I gave up on what i had been pursuing and you call this the fact? michigetda!

The fact that people are getting excited talking about it in front of me really pissed me off. I have had enough! I accepted the fact, i chose to listen, to follow, WHAT ELSE DO YOU NEED ME TO DO, can't you just leave me alone?! Why hasn't you had enough of this topic, or at least, jebal, don't stay near me, just, not around me will do. Please go get a life, i have one too.

My mind hurts, i shall stop here.