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28th JUNE 2011, one of the worst day in my life!
My collegemates are attending semester two without me.
I'm no longer a taylorians.
I miss PM15 so badly.

JUNRA's news surfaced all over the net this morning. I was back from lunch when i came across the message from jia yee. My first reaction was OMG!!!!! WHAT?!!!! WAE GOO HARA?! WAE WAE WAE!!!

I sensed some changes on junhyung when JY and i was chatting the other day. We were guessing that he may be in love with a girl out there since he looked strangely happier than before on stage. WE GOT IT RIGHT! but why, of all the girls, why Hara? I didn't see this coming.

My personal opinion is i don't ship JUNRA. Forever junseob in my heart! I'm not a fan of hara nor kara, but beast, so i'll respect his choice. I wasn't in pain and heartbroken at all compared to jongkyung's case back then, i nearly tear up. Perhaps a little heartbroken is reasonable. Some just claimed that we don't own him, I KNOW, but i HAVE THE RIGHT to feel sad and unhappy. Only true b2uties know. To be honest, i'm actually happy that he found someone he loves. I'll just assume i don't know the girl :')

After doing all the thinking this afternoon, i think i found the reason why i'm not in pain. I had gone through something far worse than this, and for a month, i lived in nightmares. Worst still, I was forced to accept the fact that nothing could change, NOTHING. Guess i have used up my life-time tears that time. Everyone told me to accept the fact, now tell me, what's actually the fact?! If you were me, would you be able to say this out in such a way? I gave up on what i had been pursuing and you call this the fact? michigetda!

The fact that people are getting excited talking about it in front of me really pissed me off. I have had enough! I accepted the fact, i chose to listen, to follow, WHAT ELSE DO YOU NEED ME TO DO, can't you just leave me alone?! Why hasn't you had enough of this topic, or at least, jebal, don't stay near me, just, not around me will do. Please go get a life, i have one too.

My mind hurts, i shall stop here.

Finished watching the last episode of Midas last night. Great drama, mainly about money, stock marketing and finance, and a bit of law included here and there. One thing, lack of a bit of romance between the characters. At first i wasn't interested in watching Midas while there is a whole list of dramas more to choose, but i was hooked after a few episodes and when No Min Woo appears, gosh, i know i should go on with it. I couldn't believe he would die in the last episode and for the first time, i teared watching it. I also find janghyuk has a lot in common with hyunbin in secret garden. Though not as good as SG, this is another worth watching drama!



Next up, i guess i'll still be watching dramas until holiday ends. 49 days and The Greatest Love. While i'm waiting to watch Miss Ripley, City Hunter and Lie To Me. Tonnes of great dramas, but i just can't finish them within a week from now. Limited time.

Received my semester one results a few days ago. TERRIBLE, enough of saying, i did badly in the test. A for maths, B for malaysian studies and biology, D for chemistry and E for physics. Two marks and i'll fail physics :/ that's how terrible i did. Didn't put in much effort since i'm leaving huh? I'll be going around crying if this is what i'm gonna score again in HELP next month.

Till then, B2ST fanmeeting is very near yet very far away. It's next FRIDAY! and that's the time to get crazy over boys with Kar Yin and Jia Yee :D

A LARGE playground, a HUGE windmill, everything was enormous in my dream. And there was the five of us, i couldn't remember what exactly we did there but we had fun, seriously. I vividly remember asking Celeste about Jay since he won a few awards last night. Guess this is nothing but missing them, or probably they miss me? Haha. I've heard from a psychological theory that a person appears in your dream because they miss you. To make me feel better, i rather believe it.

This morning, I drove my family out for breakfast. Having no experience on highway, now i realized cars are extremely scary. Don't play play!




I felt bad after knowing that Rice couldn't make it to the final. The only contestant that i support this year is gone. Thrill gone. It's gonna be his last stage tonight, i better watch him for the last time. Somehow i managed to find his blog and after reading all, I think he has a sad family background. Whatever it is, i still wish to see him next year :)

A small farewell party for Jing at sunway pyramid yesterday, with only the five of us. But it was a great one. It's always fun to be with them =D

It's because of holiday that i was able to go in the morning and spent the first two hours walking around with jing. The rest of them were still having class. About 12pm, both of us walked across the green canopy before we reached sunway university college to fetch our 'xiao zhi de' princess, karyin. We made our promise!

Had our lunch at a taiwanese restaurant.



And thanks to karyin, we tried a new delicious dish. Jang jang jang~





After lunch was shopping time. Bought a bag for jing as a gift. I know she likes it a lot because why not, she chose it all by herself XD

All the best in pursuing her dream. We will have to wait till her august holiday till we meet again.

Dad bought a new karaoke set which arrived this morning. And it only means my afternoon for this whole week will be all packed. Fabulous! Spammed new songs alone this afternoon. Still learning how to slot in korean songs, so in the meantime, i'm using usb for kpop music. This new machine here has a usb holder, how awesome. Uh, that's it, i shall finish my hongkong series this week and start off with any korean dramas the week after this and also the week after next. I don't want to study, just waiting for the arrival of 4th july, kinda sad right, have to spend my birthday in a brand new environment. How come i don't receive any reply from government? Oh well, i shall leave those worries behind. Gonna meet my new little car tomorrow. Wonder how it looks like.

Went to Sunway Pyramid three days in a roll.

The second day was basically a birthday celebration for yan hong and yeong teng. We bought them a black and white wallet. Watched Dylan Dog, Dead of Night. We hurriedly finished up our lunch at Capricciossa as we ran out of time. We didn't miss out much though, perhaps a small portion of the intro. Although it's somewhat silly or maybe a better term to describe, funny and a bit of scary here and there, it was an enjoyable movie.













Third day in sunway was with my parents. And i managed to get myself a beige jacket and a dress. Oh well, i have been craving for clothes and shoes more than usual lately. The sneaker wedges that jia yee showed us online is my target for now. Vans is now available at pyramid, much to my delight, how awesome! I should really save money. I still have a list of things to buy: fiction and fact is a MUST, shoes from vans or puma or wherever as long as i like it and what? I couldn't think for any right now, but i'll know what exactly i want when i see it.

Three weeks of holiday is simply awesome. I have 21 days for dramas!

Happy Holiday to all A-levels' Taylorians !

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Friday was the last day of our first semester exam. I shall leave exam aside cause for now, it is not important anymore.

Chemistry paper ended at 10am.

Half of the class headed to sunway pyramid as planned, a farewell party for me and kar joon, as well as a celebration for the beginning of semester break. As usual, i went there by sook sian's car and this time, we have two extra cars, alex's and stephanie's, the two new drivers.

First off, we had our lunch at Manhattan Fish Market. Ordered a 8 set meal which was shared among the eight of us. Mushroom soup, tropicana breeze, 4 side dishes and grilled fish. Nom nom nom. Celeste forced me to finish the carrot on my plate, she said it's good for skin. Forever busy taking photos while waiting to be served. And also a great talk.

After lunch, 15 of us went to red box while the 4 girls went for a movie. Chuan wei is forever the papa who takes care of everything. Never knew the guys can sing, especially samuel, kar joon and hisham (rap all the time). They were holding the mic throughout the singing session. Chuan wei can dance to everything too. We also selected a few hit songs of taylor swift for terry, but he was just too shy. Unlike sasa who sang in all ranges, hit all the high notes. Kpop is never left out from the list. The forever loyal elf, karyn selected no others and sorry sorry. Okay, i can never deny the strength of fangirl. She screamed whenever leeteuk appears on the screen. Big fan of Jay Chou, celeste, also selected a number of his songs.

Favourite song in PM15 --- 爱我别走, even alex can sing along the chorus. Without expecting anything from them, suddenly sook sian grabbed my hand, i turned, everyone looked at me at the same time and sang the chorus together. I tried to avoid looking into their eyes and turned my head away from time to time. Tears were already rolling in my eyes. Karyn called out for a stop as she was going to cry. I saw Stephanie wiping her tears away. I felt even more bad. Moment that i will never ever forget! It really means a lot to me!

Kar joon's favourite song for sasa --- 老鼠爱大米. Karjoon hugged him as tight as possible until the last line of the song. Sasa was obviously struggling hard. Still wondering why he dislike the song so much.

Alex and Stephanie left earlier before red box end. Handshake with alex and one last photoshoot session before i gave steph a BIG hug. Certainly can meet them up anytime at KK.

We went on until 4pm.

Tired of walking around, we decided to have some ice-cream at MCD and sat down for a talk. It's from there i get to know about their childhood life, some really funny one from hui ling, telling us that she peed in the garden when she was in standard one. lmao

They bought tickets for movie after that, decided to stay till night falls. Unfortunately, i couldn't make it for the movie. I went around with them, shopped for clothes until it was time for my dad to pick me up.

A real goodbye this time. Chun Hwai asked for a hug, never expected that. Seeing that i wasn't answering, he told me to treat him as a kid and give him a hug. Haha. Celeste gave me a hug, sook sian promised to visit my house during holiday and some advices from si mun. I walked out of the shop, i still remember it was at forever 21, and a pianist was playing the piano outside. I feel bad inside, wanted to run back and give them another BIG hug, but i scare once i step back, tears will flow non-stop. I just don't dare to cry in front of them. How silly.

Back on facebook that night, hui ling told me that sook sian and celeste were emo and down for the rest of the time after i left. Celeste cried, her eyes turned RED. I know it's my fault. I should have return to them :'( at least it's better to cry together, comfort each other rather than to leave them crying alone :( perhaps this is the first time i face such a situation in my life, having to leave a bunch of really cool and awesome classmates, makes me run of thoughts and ideas on handling it.















































I'm gonna miss everyone in PM15, including Mr Tan and i really mean it!
Thanks for all the wishes. And the card, specially from steph, celeste, karyn and sooksian! The four of them are the best thing in class !

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